Philosophical cow dung on the life of little Ms. Imperfectly Fine.

Thursday, May 11, 2006

Color Quiz III

Okay, I am bored with debating and since today is a free day(I will be going to the beach in 30 minutes), I thought I might as well analyze something other than debate topics.

ColorQuiz.comAna took the free personality test!

"Needs a change in her circumstances or in her rela..."

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Your Existing Situation
Orderly, methodical, and self-contained. Needs the respect, recognition, and understanding of those close to her.

Yes, I am in a debate competition after all. I'm trying my hardest to be as structured and as systematic as I can be. The pressure for me to perfom is on, but so far my team mates have been so supportive it's almost unreal. Not only are those monkeys civilized, they are actually sympathetic as well. I enjoy being a part of the team and I honestly feel that I am gaining their respect and understanding. I am very thankful for that.

Your Stress Sources
The situation is regarded as threatening or dangerous. Outraged by the thought that she will be unable to achieve her goals and distressed at the feeling of helplessness to remedy this. Over-extended and feels beset, possibly to the point of nervous prostration.

Yes, we are contending for the championship and right now, we are not in the position to make any stupid mistakes. I feel myself having the inferiority complex, I'm trying hard to convince myself that I do deserve the spot in the first team and I am capable of being a spectacular debater. I worry that my best would not be good enough to give the team the win. However, people around me are constantly telling me that I do have what it takes to make it through and somehow, that helps.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Willing to participate and to allow herself to become involved, but tries to fend off conflict and disturbance in order to reduce tension.

Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity.

Conditions are such that she will not let herself become intimately involved without making mental reservations.

Yes, I am being non-confrontational at times. As much as I am participating in discussion and talks with both sides of conflicting ideas, I rather not get myself involved directly in the situation. I have more things to worry about like grabbing the win.

Here it is again, for the third time, maybe I seriously should be getting some.

And yet here is the explanation. I am wary of making the same mistakes all over again.

Your Desired Objective
Needs a change in her circumstances or in her relationships which will permit relief from stress. Seeking a solution which will open up new and better possibilities and allow hopes to be fulfilled.

That's pretty obvious, isn't it. I do feel that a change is in order. The question is, will it be a good one and will it be good enough to be the best.

Your Actual Problem
Agitation, unpredictability, and irritation accompanying depleted vitality and intolerance of further demands have all placed her in a position in which she feels menaced by her circumstances. Feeling powerless to remedy this by any action of her own, she is desperately hoping that some solution will provide a way of escape.

Yes, I am frantically searching for a way to be less agitated, I am tired of thinking that I don't deserve what I have now, when the possibility of it is more clear than ever before just because someone said that I am a good debater with expectations of becoming a great one. Yes, I do feel insecure but perhaps I should just learn to ignore it and be more positive.

What happened to the ambitious, optimistic and sure of herself, Ana?

She was away, but she'll be coming back soon.
Speaking of the she-devil.. here she is.

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Dragging my feet to Langkawi

So, my exams are over. Here comes Langkawi.

I've been dreading this day when I actually have to slave myself for debate. So much to read and so little time. I still can't believe that I'm in the first team. Still can't believe that all eyes would be on the new girl in the big boys club. Still trying to put some sense into this soapy brain of mine(yes, it is filled with foam and suds).

Anyway, I wanted to document this somewhere for future laughing material. "My team will win the All-Asians Debating Competition 2006 in Langkawi!" Now, if I say this a hundred times, it would probably come true.. make that one o o o just in case.

I went out with Kak Sue and the hi-lite of the outing was when we sat down on the bench, resting our tired feet, talking about our two-hour browsing in Watsons for hair, facial, body, lip care products. And then it occured to me that, even though I'm not much of a shopper, 1) not yet a money making machine 2) shop by the shopping list in my head instead of carnal instinct, I purchased quite a number of sensible items.

Here are my findings, reasoned and calculated
1) Olive Shampoo - I think olive oil has many good attributes. Why for the hair? Well, purely sentimental reason actually. When I was younger, I had chicken pox and I didn't wash my hair for days, weeks even. My hair got so tangled and mousy, it looked like an abandoned bird's nest. So what my mom did was, she used pure olive oil to sort out the mess. I noticed a remarkable improvement in the condition of my hair and I swear it glowed. It's been years and after the torment for the sake of fashion(my chemical affairs), I long for that childhood/ish pleasure of seeing my hair shine. So, that's why I got the shampoo and I must say, I love my hair.

2) Papaya+Mango Exfoliating soap and body lotion - Well, I love mangoes.. Can't say the same for papaya though. But, I read that those two are good for the skin. Mango for mosturising, papaya for dissolving dead skin cells. Will devote some time in memorizing facts in exact. Scrubbing is my latest comfort routine. I scrub til I can scrub no more.

3) Facial Cleansing Gel - I don't think it has any particular fruit in it. But, I haven't been using it long enough to notice if my face has become any more decent than it already is.

4) Sunscreen SPF50 with lip balm - Umm.. Perhaps they use bananas. I am definitely going to spend a lot of time on the beach. I know some people are going to say that with my complexion, what's a few hours out in the sun going to hurt? Well, this reminds me of when I went to watch the motoGP race in Sepang two years ago. It was only a two day excursion but I was almost unrecognizable. When I went back to college, my friends were crying, "Ana, what happened to you?" Uh... the sun happened. But, they had the right to get all excited for they didn't know the details. Nobody was supposed to know of my little adventure. And that's another story to tell.

So, from my shopping experience I realize that I am actually a concern consumer. Despite my sometimes uncaring attitude towards shopping (ask me what I rather do instead), I do have fun in browsing and choosing the best one. And it goes to almost everything. Hmm.. I wish men are sold in retail stores, you can return them if they are spoiled and burn the money on chocolates and ice-cream.